alibelle_x

I'm tired, Kase is at Pearl Jam, he's not gonna be back for another.........2 hours.

Bleurgh.

Yah my internet is being a wee bit gay. LJ is the only thing that's loading so I figured I'd update you all on my not so interesting life.

I just came back from Scotland.

In regards to my last post, life is sorted. Basically I couldn't decide whether to stay at uni or not and it all got a bit on top of me because I'm that bad at making decision and to top it all off I have a boyfriend in the mix, we go to the same uni. The thing that was upsetting me was that my parents were telling me not to chuck him in with the decision making because it wasn't that important. But all the time that I was thinking about it, I couldn't bring myself to end it with him, I wasn't going to.

Anyway I'm staying at uni so it's all fine and dandy and none of that matters any more :)

Hello new friends :)

I'm Alice, 19, studying Creative Sound and Music at Newport Uni in Wales, UK. I listen to music, if you want to know what then go to my last fm page, I'm under "alibellee" and if you want to stalk me then twitter is /alibelle

I haven't updated for ages but I'm not going to do it now because if I write down everything that's going on I'll probably end up crying and I'm in Starbucks.

Let's just say I'm not in the best of ways. I need to make a massive decision and I don't know how to even begin. I'm torn into little pieces each with a different view of what I should do.

I'm having trouble justifying my existence.

My phone bill this month is coming to £100

I kind of want to hide in a hole.

I currently have £6 to my name.

Kase just called, he's had to take his mum to hospital because she's not breathing right. And she's got swine flu which buggers everything up even more. God I hope she's gonna be alright, they all said the people who died had underlying health issues and that doesn't even begin to cover her.

My problem is tomorrow I'm meant to be going to France at 8am for a week, but part of me thinks I should get in the car and go to Sheffield to be with Kase.

I can't get a refund on my train tickets to France (£200) and my mum would probably cry.

Argh I'm so torn.

And I really want her to be okay. She's incredible.

I have one ticket for TBS at Cardiff Uni on the 31st July.

£15

Any takers?

I got a Last FM profile.

www.last.fm/user/alibellee



feel free to add me. you can laugh at my rubbish music taste (Y)

why I bother. If you're going to be like that then just fuck off.

And if you think I'm going to be "fine" with you spending a night at mine then fucking off back home because "she's" having a party and you "miss her" , then consider this over.

Go out with her, it's clearly what you want and I can't deal with this any more.



I hate men.

And I miss everyone at uni, I miss my unicorns, as Leah said.

But the person I'm going to miss the most is Chris. He's been incredible these past few months - he's put up with my crap, let me move in with him, pretty much got me through this year. He's the big brother I never had and I'm going to miss living with him so much. He's one of the most amazing people I've ever met and I love him to bits. I'm really going to miss him.

Leah - another incredible person. No matter what she says she's amazing, she's been through so much and is still fighting her way out and I love her for it.

Those two are my starbucks buddies. Next year it's not changing.

I miss Joe, he's my positivity tutor. He's taught me how to be positive no matter what and how to carry on even when you're feeling like complete crap. He makes me laugh and is just mental.

Kirrrrsty - my lesbian lover. I'm so glad I'm moving in with her next year, it's gonna be so much fun. Sadly she's spending the summer in Wales, not London =[

Kase, well it goes without saying that I miss Kase. I'm not going to write anything because there aren't enough words.


Yaargh bring on uni year 2.

I'm so sorry! I've been so damn busy recently with everything that I haven't had time to update.

So - last weekend I went to Manchester for the day to visit Kase. We had a great time even though he'd taken 4 hayfever tablets and was beyond drowsy, gotta love the fluffy one.

I've got a job! I'm working for Palawan Productions as a record label minion, so damn happy about it too. I gave the chief an idea and he's going with it :D so now I have to put on a tour around the country.....eep!

I've moved out of my flat and into the new house today so I'm currently very tired as I was out last night and didn't get to sleep til 9am and was woken up at 10.30am and I'm very hungover.

Tomorrow I'm going to Sheffield for the day to see Kase who's not very happy right now so I'm going to go and give him a hug.

Yesh...xx

I can't be fucked to update this now.

I'm going to bed because I've got to be up scarily early to get my train to Manchester to see Kase =D =D =D

You'll get an update around Sunday time.....................yes.


=]

I really couldn't be assed to do this.

Well it's looking good in the job department, hopefully this guy is going to employ me as his record company's minion. www.myspace.com/andyrobinson is the guy I'd be working with.

And I might be heading to Manchester this weekend as a conversation between Kase and I that went something like this:
Kase - Come to Sheffield
Me - Come to London
Kase - Sheffield
Me - London

...ended like this
Kase - Halfway?

So we thought about Birmingham because it's halfway but we're not sure what it's like and he was being sarcastic and cynical (as usual haha) and then we thought Manchester because it's fucking awesome there. Then Hollie told me about this promotion The Mirror and Virgin are doing where you can get a free train ticket so it's looking good. Only slight problem is I'm meant to be meeting Kimi, Mimi and Renee for supper on Saturday evening but Mimi's mother (the other bane in my life) is making her go to Canterbury in the evening so I won't be able to see her unless I see her during the day. And I don't particularly want to be one of those people who ditches their friends for their other halves. Hmm....I'll call her tomorrow....

In other news, I miss my uni friends loads, it's kind of ridiculous. Much as I hated living round the same people in boarding school, uni's different and they're a completely different sort of person and I miss spending every day with them so much it actually hurts.

BUT I saw Kirsty yesterday, Chris is coming to London and we're going to Brighton in July, I'll be seeing Becca in July (LIVERPOOL ROADTRIP :D :D) and with any luck Leah will be coming to London and bringing Joe, Josh, Josh (yes there's two), Alfie, Birchy, Darryl and the rest of the Welsh clan.

Yay.

Peace out.

I love how shit at sincerity Kase is:

(tu)(B)(8)Crazy Eyes(8)(B)(tu) Take back the city for yourself tonight... says: (22:52:07)
I'm gonna go sit in my big chairs now. I miss you. yeah. X


Aww haha

So I just realised I can't type, that last entry was meant to be "Summer WILL be..." not with. Jeez woman get a grip.

Yesterday I went out and bought Sims 3 only to find it doesn't actually run on my laptop =[ which is probably a good thing anyway. It's on Ebay now, if you look up the same username as this one you'll find it if you're interested. Although I did get a very cool key ring/usb stick out of it which makes me smile cos I'm a nerd like that =D

Kase called me to tell me he finds it weird that he misses me which was odd but then he's not very good at the whole sincere thing so I guess it was kinda cute. He's coming here on the 28th and I'm going up there on the 2nd July til the 8th which will be interesting but he's taking me to York and some other northern cities I haven't put on my map yet.

Oh and I went for a walk earlier today down by the river, got some alright photos which I'll try and put up here but I'm retarded at this/don't have the patience.

Hello new people =]

Did anyone else (in London) get woken up at 5am by a thunderstorm? Yeah I did.....I hate storms and my ipod had run out of battery haha oh such is life.

Wow what a pile of drivel.

I've found my new obsession.

"Until The Earth Begins To Part" by Broken Records

I urge you to listen to it.

It's true.

Anyway here's an update of my life so far.

I'm currently in London, unemployed and babysitting my 16 year old sister who is halfway through her GCSEs and my mother who apparently can't function without my dad who has gone to Africa for 10 days. Ah the joys of having gone to boarding school....all your friends live everywhere except where you live. That doesn't change at uni either.

So yes I'm bored, desperately trying to find a job and already hating the summer which I hate anyway. Hayfever and heat make me a seriously tetchy bitch.

Oh AND I've had tonsillitis, still taking penicillin for it but it seems to have disappeared thank Christ.

Wow that's one massive moan.



On a brighter note, I've started writing again, I may post some stuff here but don't hold your breathe because I probably won't. And I've got my beloved piano back so I'm happily tootling away on that, oh how I've missed it. And I've got loads of time for my reading habit PLUS my mother went out and bought herself a new bike so I've inherited hers which means I'll be cycling around London and this makes me happy. I'll be taking my camera with me so expect photos if I can be bothered to learn how to upload them properly.

Argh argh fuckity argh.

I'm not the happiest of bunnies right now. Was meant to be going back to Wales for the night today and then going up to Sheffield with Kase tomorrow but some higher power clearly hates me because about an hour before I was meant to leave, I got so ill I could barely stand and was crying I was in so much pain. Turns out I might have tonsillitis so I've gotta go to the doctor tomorrow.

That's not great.

Add to that the fact that I'm now not going to see Kase for a month and you've got one seriously unhappy girl here. Fuck's sake.

Sorry for the lack of updates, things have been mental. All calm now.



I'm not looking forward to this summer. Kase will be going back to Sheffield and I'll be going back to London and we'll be seeing each other for about 4 days every 5 weeks.

I can't tell him how much I'll miss him.


Urgh I'm lame and needy. Yay.

Life's been pretty damn mental recently and it's not getting any calmer for a while.

Performance tomorrow, then I can relax and do whatever I want so that is when this journal will become more interesting.

I might do ADIML tomorrow because it's gonna be a pretty interesting day.....

have my boyfriend back! =D! The lovely people at Royal Gwent finally decided to set him free after he downed 2 cartons of cranberry juice to get his levels high enough.

Yay =D


Also...I'VE FINISHED ALL MY WORK I'VE FINISHED ALL MY WORK AND IT'S BEING HANDED IN TOMORROW 2PM AND THEN I'LL BE AMAZINGLY HAPPY =DDD

Starbucks tomorrow after the hand in, yes this is pretty much the pattern we live by. Go to uni for a bit then go to Starbucks for a coffee and a natter.


It's a good life =]